Keep your guard up

At the age of 13 I was introduced to the age of sport of boxing. One of my many uncles took me and my brother to Lorain, Ohio on the south side to the Gymanus Gym. I was so siked you know like I was Mike Tyson or some shit I bought some wrap for my hands and my boxing shoes. I was ready to knock some cats out, but one thing you don't know as a little kid is that there are people who have been doing this there whole lives. I real issue was where I was is little Puerto Rico and they take boxing serious. My first fight was against an little boy named Snoopy he looked small real light curly brown hair and a nice jab. He was a sucker I beat his face off, but midway through the fight they brought another little black boy I cant't remember his name. He knocked me out though I got beat my uncle taught me a life lesson keep your guard up.

This is something I kept with me my whole life mainly with love. If I started to fall in love I would have sex with another woman. I was to not be the first to get hurt you know to keep my guard up that was my jab , so if she cheated I could say I already did it. The one time I didn't do it though this girl got me good her name was Kim O'keefe she was younger than me and sexually more experienced. Now-a-days you would call her a hoe but she my homegirl now so Kim sorry for the comment. I met her and we made like sweet love for like two whole minutes. I was pumping like a freight train. She was my second for the record and she stole my heart, but remember I was like her 85th. So I have her come to my city and she does but we meet later that night. The weird thing is earlier that day my brother told me they ran a train an a girl named kim in a random basement. It cut like razors in my veins running slowly through the chamber of my heart. I learned there that I was supposedly right keep your guard up.

Now I am a lot different I would say more sensitive and caring I hate it I think I care too much. My wife runs me over and I don't like it sometimes I wish I was more of a dick maybe I would get more respect, but I love her and don't want her to change I fell in love with her the way she is and would never wanna change her if i would try that keep my guard up with her I would never have her. So I is like you live and you learn from your trial and tribulations. I say stop caring and just love heartbreaks happen let it go and move on. I am the complete opposite form where i was 15 yrs ago I say love hurts but when It works its strange but it feels good.