Keep your guard up

At the age of 13 I was introduced to the age of sport of boxing. One of my many uncles took me and my brother to Lorain, Ohio on the south side to the Gymanus Gym. I was so siked you know like I was Mike Tyson or some shit I bought some wrap for my hands and my boxing shoes. I was ready to knock some cats out, but one thing you don't know as a little kid is that there are people who have been doing this there whole lives. I real issue was where I was is little Puerto Rico and they take boxing serious. My first fight was against an little boy named Snoopy he looked small real light curly brown hair and a nice jab. He was a sucker I beat his face off, but midway through the fight they brought another little black boy I cant't remember his name. He knocked me out though I got beat my uncle taught me a life lesson keep your guard up.

This is something I kept with me my whole life mainly with love. If I started to fall in love I would have sex with another woman. I was to not be the first to get hurt you know to keep my guard up that was my jab , so if she cheated I could say I already did it. The one time I didn't do it though this girl got me good her name was Kim O'keefe she was younger than me and sexually more experienced. Now-a-days you would call her a hoe but she my homegirl now so Kim sorry for the comment. I met her and we made like sweet love for like two whole minutes. I was pumping like a freight train. She was my second for the record and she stole my heart, but remember I was like her 85th. So I have her come to my city and she does but we meet later that night. The weird thing is earlier that day my brother told me they ran a train an a girl named kim in a random basement. It cut like razors in my veins running slowly through the chamber of my heart. I learned there that I was supposedly right keep your guard up.

Now I am a lot different I would say more sensitive and caring I hate it I think I care too much. My wife runs me over and I don't like it sometimes I wish I was more of a dick maybe I would get more respect, but I love her and don't want her to change I fell in love with her the way she is and would never wanna change her if i would try that keep my guard up with her I would never have her. So I is like you live and you learn from your trial and tribulations. I say stop caring and just love heartbreaks happen let it go and move on. I am the complete opposite form where i was 15 yrs ago I say love hurts but when It works its strange but it feels good.

NIGGER

I don't know if its something about me or if its a problem in my head, but I have my color. I always wanted to be something else but black I love my family my culture but I hate my skin color. I remember the first time I was called the N word or NIGGER. It was by a 8 yr old boy in my class we were friends and in line at school and he just turned around and called me a NIGGER. I was shocked to hear it I though everybody was like the same at that moment I felt black. It was like I was not American as if I was Lavar Burton from roots. Who tell people to call black people nigger I was not taught to hate but learned it from my friends who did.

Now that I am older the its like everybody wants to say it in front of me. I hear it on Xbox live at bar yelled by angry white people. Its like someone said "hey everybody if you get mad at a black person yell NIGGER. It sucks I don't call white people cracker i say like fuck you or dick head like we are all the same.

So someone tell me why does no one like black people? What did we do to disserve this this, I know that all black people are not all nice but the same goes for every race.